It has been a long time since my last post. It seem’s like as soon as I got a little glimpse of summer I had to drop everything and devote myself to the promise of warm days in the sun.
So let me catch you up. I have been studying a lot, celebrating my children’s birthdays (by the by they are growing way too fast), enjoying family visits, soaking in the sun, freezing my bum in forever-cold kiddie pools, staring at the ocean, driving myself crazy trying to entertain and educate the boys, loving, stressing, making plans, changing my mind, driving myself crazy 🙂 and breathing inn every bit of warmth I can.
It has been a wonderful summer and I am suffering from severe attachment to it. “Hello my name is Ixiana and I am a summerholic.” I am dead serious, if I get a caressed by a breeze lower than 80 degrees I’m afraid I will go into full panic mode. I know, I know that is ridiculous. I know nothing lasts for ever (except my love for my kids and there is no way you can convince me otherwise), I know letting go is the only way to live in peace. I know all these things, and more yet here I am freaking out.
This made me think of all the things we know yet can’t seen to apply. Like if we don’t fold the laundry as soon as it’s done it will sit there for a week or until some one runs out of underwear. Yet I can’t bring myself to fold it when that annoying drier alarm goes off. So what’s the point of knowing so much if we can’t bring ourselves to action? As a stubborn, fairly educated, strong woman I can’t use ignorance as an excuse, at least not today.
So in the midst of this irrational fear of saying good bye to summer I have decided to start using my knowledge for good. Today I am challenging myself to live in the moment; a challenge I am constantly challenging myself with :). I am challenging myself to let go of things I can’t control (like the seasons) and take control of those I can.
I am going to go about my precious life studying a lot, celebrating my children, enjoying family, soaking in the sun, freezing my bum in forever-cold kiddie pools, staring at the ocean, driving myself crazy trying to entertain and educate the boys, loving, stressing, making plans, changing my mind, driving myself crazy 🙂 and breathing inn every bit of warmth I can. After all, there is the promise of summer every year.